Most of his unhappiness was focused on his nose. For a long time he talked of having cosmetic surgery. His motive was not, as many people surmised, to look more like his idol, Diana Ross.
It was so that he would look less like his father, the man who had so mistreated him and whose strong, broad-nosed face he saw looking back at him from the mirror.
Jackson was too afraid to go ahead with surgery until 1979, when, aged 21, the decision was made for him. He tripped during a dance routine and broke his nose. When he looked in the mirror after the operation to repair it, he liked what he saw.
Two years later, he had a second operation. A dangerous pattern was starting to emerge. Three years later, he had another and, in 1986, a fourth nose job.
He told an associate that the 'greatest joy I ever had was in knowing I had a choice about my face'.
SHOOT: Jackson lacked an inner parent who could discern right from wrong, practical from impractical, appropriate from inappropriate. It's not his fault though, his family taught him to sing and dance, rather than to be a functional human being.
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