Outside

Even higher...
Today was all indoors for me. Some sleep, some webcrawling. Plenty of reading. I'm a bit anti-movie at the moment. Think I need to steer clear until Star Wars, otherwise I might have developed a resistance to the silver screen, almost like becoming resistant to antibiotics.
Did manage to finally sleep at 5pm, after being awake since 7am yesterday.

Have started reading another book about Superstring Theory, which basically comes from the angle of reconciling General Relativity (an explanation for the large things in the universse, planets, systems, galaxies), with Quantum Mechanics (which is a study of nanoscopic building blocks, atoms, neutrons, quarks, strings etc). My own view of the universe is that I believe it is pointless trying to find the absolute minimum building block, because I believe it expands infinitely in terms of increasing and decreasing size, in the same way that time has no end, the now is simply eternal.
I suspect that energy is the basic component of everything, which is another way of saying everything is made up of nothing. It is just arrangements of energy, vibrations, patterns. That may seem inconsistent with reality, when one touches a table it feels solid, one's hand does not pass through it as would through magnetic fields. But the strength of these forces differ, from light, to wind, to gravity (which is a force drawing ourselves ever downward, invisible but neverthless real) and so on until we go from invisible forces (analogous to invisible light or waves) to visible, gaseous, liquid, and solid.

It seems to me that people have a terrible flaw in their thinking in that their need to understand intellectually gives them a snapshot, serial thinking pattern. Consider having to render a day. a 3 year old would draw a picture of the sun. A 4 or 5 year old might add a smile. The picture, a yellow circle with perhaps a few radiating squiggles does suggest the nuclear explosion, but only just. It does not explain the sheer reality, size, or nature of it, nor does it suggest that it moves from one horizon to the next, its light changing, the temperature increasing then decreasing.
The pattern, and the changes in the pattern, the exceptions. My point is we people take a snapshot when we consider a thing, and are not able to see the process, how it is related to a scheme of things. This comes from the extent to which we have divorced ourselves from our world, nature and each other, and come to believe we are separate, individuals and disconnected, which is a dot in a paragraph, on a page, in a Biblical Epic that suggests otherwise, that all things work and influence everything else. Weather is a good analogy to show how systems do not work in isolation, but spring up and swirl in relation to our systems, spinning out new highs and lows. Clouds or raindrops may think of themselves as independent, but they are just small parts of intricate systems, in a single moment. Perhaps our snapshot approach is based on our snapshot existence, or what we belive to be an impermanent materialising before being vanquished.

Belief in interconnectivity, assumes, I feel, an intelligent, eternal universe, of which we are a part, but nevertheless, woven into its fabric, an evolved, intransigent, evolving intelligence. Life is the outer reach of the universe, where universal laws come to fruition and expression. We can express our individuality, but that merely shows the personality (pattern) of the energy coursing through us, expressing just another tune at an incrementally different pitch to someone else, all the way along a spectrum.

Its raining outside, and miserable, so good to be inside, exploring.